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Monday, December 19, 2016

Gingerbread House?

Alright, today is not my day! I'm messed up pretty much of things from pizza dough to gingerbread house. I spent my whole afternoon standing in front of the table make this and that. First of all, my brunch. I was decided to make my own pizza today. I was looked up for the dough recipe (no knead pizza dough), i made it. I was so confident that it will make my pizza really great. And... yes, it was a total failed. The dough was very wet and sticky. I couldn't even form it into a dough and roll it up into round shape. The texture is pretty dense and chewy. Huh... damn mess. Well, i can't blame for the recipe. It was me who messed up by adding too much of water.

 Hmm? what? where's the photo? Look, after i waking up from bed, i straight prepare and cooked the filling(pizza). I didn't even eat a thing. So, in that situation, i am pretty much hungry and when i conscious about the photo, i had already it. screw it! By the way, it was nothing good to look at it though. It just a fuck up pizza. 

And after having my "Delicious" brunch, is time to prepare the ingredient to decorate my very own gingerbread house. I buy every biscuit that i think it can be my decoration. Some expensive, some cheap like Pocky(double chocolate, strawberry, cookies and cream), oreo and some other local brand mini chocolate. In the end, the only biscuit i used was the double chocolate Pocky and the mini chocolate. Well, for a sweet tooth like me, i wouldn't be a waste. I'll just eat up anyway. 



At this angle, it doesn't seem bad right? But if i turn to another way round, it was horrible and awful.

Front

Right Side

Left Side

And the last, Back Side. 

After i finish decorate this thing here, i was wondering how can i be this bad at baking and decorating?The pictures i took aren't too bad at all. But it was just the angle. I've missed the shot where the crack side is. Oh man, the process of making this is killing me, especially the window. My first idea was to use orange candy, melt it and pour to the windows there. However, it became solid very fast. So, i stop using it and change it to jelly. One thing, though, JELLY you make my cookies become soggy! (Duh! it supposes to be like this.) Since i baking myself the cookies, it was kinda off of the measure. All i do was just covered up with white chocolate( excessively).  Other than that, i was pretty much satisfying with the roof. It ain't bad, isn't it? Just right about i took the picture i want, the next thing, i ......

Smash It and Eat It!

  *I say it is a gingerbread house but, the cookies doesn't contain any spices. It just a normal chocolate cookie. That's all.





Thursday, December 8, 2016

Flashback Graduation Day

On 26 November 2016, I was officially graduated. That day, i thought i will be very depressed because i did no attend the ceremony. I was not that very depressed but felt regretting. I'm the one who signs for not attend the ceremony but deep inside i wish to attend. Wearing the graduation gown and taking photos with my friends (which were fighting along with me these 4 years in the college.) The one and only one photo that  will be  taken together and i did not attend. 

Going back to the previous day before i  signed up for not attend the ceremony, because i felt so low self-esteem at that time. Everyone is getting jobs, moving on in their life. As for me, I felt so useless. Not getting a job, not doing anything by just laying around in my room for exactly half of the year. With these, i could not face them. As a matter of fact, i was really scared they asked me some question about my life. 'How's going?', 'Have you work yet?', 'What are you doing right now?' ...... These questions, i could not answer them. And that's how i missed the chance. Again, one and only one graduation photo. After a few days of the graduation, they made a gathering. Throughout the gathering, all i said was not all bullshitting but it just something that made me feel better. I did not lie about the i still not work yet and saying i'm learning video editing and stuff. That's kinda true but the real reason was not about learning things. Is was all because my stress and emotional thinking that stop me from moving on. I just can't tell them. Even now, nobody knows how i actual feel. By looking their facial expression, i know they look down on me. I know they think of me "Useless" and unrealistic thinking. And...yea, i feel that too... 

For the past few months, i feel like i am getting social anxiety.  The feeling of 'hatred' on people and the thought of people how they think of me. Until now i still feel that. However, i  do talk to a friend before, it seems like she doesn't believe me. Am i overthinking?  The feeling of frightening of people and crowd, nobody could understand. Do i... 
As days goes by day, i don't even know anymore. The feel of fear and people had made me this decision. And now, i'm regretting. Sorry for the off topic. Let's move on to the cake as shown below.



At the same day, i tried to make a whole strawberry shortcake. The appearance seems ok but the sponge cake and the whipped cream were actually a big failed. It still edible though. The sponge cake is kinda deflated during fold in the process, so the cake was so rough and dry. So was the whipped cream. I just don't understand how to stabilize the whipped cream and not being runny. And always, i couldn't get the consistency that i want. I had used the gelatine recipe but still, it melt so quick once you take it out from the fridge. I was planning the decorated the cake with some whipped cream, But, it seems failed. The taste overall is ok, and yet it did not meet my expectations. 

Wednesday, December 7, 2016

Mcdonald's Groovy Lime

All i'm gonna say, Mcdonald's what happen to your ice-cream these days? The syrup thing is not that very match with the vanilla ice-cream. I mean the vanilla ice-cream itself is really good and tasty, but the syrup thing is kinda ruining the overall taste. Like this key lime syrup, i must say, it tastes like dishwashing liquid. That's it. WTF!? Zesty taste....neh...but still feel a bit tanginess in it. Would i purchase again? No. There is one thing i would like to recommend which is Hershey's chocolate sundae with peanut butter caramel sauce/ sea salt caramel sauce. And that i would purchase over and over again.